whisperingHappines

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Cant concentrate anymore ... i'm lossing focus on studies =x

There's nothing more to say.
Its not the end of world
happiness will still remain.
No more looking back, leaving everything behind, leaving everything out
I'll be happier (:

School = Homework + Test
Tomorrow = School = Homework + Test = Zzzz...
i miss you, what are you doing now, where are you?

My sixteen was just a simple dinner with besties the huhhhhh were not free..... but its okay, its still great (: This year madeline and i suprised each other during our birthday, i am sure hers was more successful afterall i'm really blur :\ haha. Anyway thanks a lot to those who remember my birthday :}
So... valentine is tomorrow!! I wont be celebrating it as usual hahaha. I wish my sis and her bf last long long and eventually get marry!! and besties and her bf to be the sweetest couple ever! Btw its not only about relationship, i also want my friendship to last forever with you all. Thanks a lot for standing by me whenever i need. You all know who you are because we share the bond!

 :)

I woke up at 4plus, now its 5plus soon it will become 6-6plus then 7plus is time to go school. There's so much words which i want to vomit out but i dont know who to tell or how to express them out. Right now the only thing i'm alway repeating to myself is work hard and harder or else my dreams can only only be dreams.

i dont see any chances, i dont like the way i feel whenever i see you with your phone. its enough, its time to go, really. this time is for real, is for sure, i'm not going to hold back again, seeing you shall no longer mean anything to me. too bad you didnt notice the great side of me or maybe it just wasnt good enough for you. dont matter, i am happy being single and i'd have a lot of "boy-friends" hahaha. (maybe you wont ever read this but well... i'm really speechless and hopeless on you)

 

update another time, photo only for now

 

 

 

As i flip through the old photos i realised that happiness and innocence seem to be closely linked together. Remembering those time when i just do things for fun and laughter. I still do but its not the same. I think i have lost part of me as i grow, now i just want to take my time to grow and hopefully find the missing part back (:

Today was good as usual. I'm really extremely grateful to be in 4r1, it feels so good to be bounded. The girls are in a whole, the girls and guys are close.! Not forgetting, we finally have carpet for ngee ann wushu =) I think i'll miss wushu after graduating, my juniors are so cute but like to bully me... a few well... but like i alway say, i am graduating already, why cant we just put the past away and treasure the remaining time together since we never know when we'll meet again after parting. Going Mr Lee's house tomorrow with the class!!

And... i really really miss dewu so much =x I dreamt of some this morning. Well... i made the decision so i will have to stick with it. But... i still love, care and miss you. Especially minli, afterall i know her since pri6 in wuzhong and she's like my small little sister/ little coach. <3 MingXin smsed, she's having party on Sunday hopefully i can make it.

Schooling is sad sad sad... at least 2tests/week. Oh well... AFTER OLEVEL I AM SO GOING TO ENJOY MYSELF!!!

I fail amath by a freaking one mark and i lost one mark due to not putting a ="0". zero... I am starting to lose my voice, hate it hate it ...

I AM HOT!! HAHAHAHAA likeS.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y HOT! hahaha i just had wine with my family so i'm kinda crazy wahahhahaha. I think i am more sick than yesterday which spells, s.u.c..k ... TakecarE and i should be getting headache sooon.... i am extremely red now (:

sore throat + flu = T_T
I'm pretty much flooded with hw and tests, S.I.A.N. I need to rest early and pray then i'll recover by monday.

i'm controlling controlling, not to let the feeling to come back. its so foolish, i hate to be one-sided but its just not going away.
minlin i think i need your listening ear about him again ):
side note: i know i am such a loser. i really hope to clear things, the separate is really killing and confusing but i know how much i shouldnt bring it up again. ok shut up! su hui is not going to emo, no way NO WAY.

Amath TEST tomorrow bummer }: I did those chapters that i am better in and ignore those that i takes forever to understand, very "clever" i know. Seriously no mood to study now, i shall slack slack slack slack slack ... and then freak out duing test tomorrow. Bad example, please dont learn!

No SCHOOL(!) nahh... i'm going pula ubin again to weed/plant today, yesterday was in the morning so today is afternoon. And my prediction is i will be a zombie when i'm back cause i've to go for tuition right after cip :\
Note: what am i doing now? seventeen magz + bread + greentea = happy me (:
takecare & 14jan was Madeline's aka bff birthday!

i miss dewu people a lot... esp... but no choice... heard that hj going to be enlist on the 8th, good luck (: and to kiwi and the rest who are going ns this year, best wishes?

( my last words )

i'm laughing, smiling, joking but truthfully i'm more afraid of everything than how anyone would have expect me to be.

dresscode for tmr: school uniform  

I just find that i must have this post cause today's 311208!!
if we didn't separate then it would have been the 4th month

2008 is going to end in hours time and i am going to countdown with kevin wendy and jerven and crystalla this year (:
I think as you grow older, you will automatically find that time is passing by faster and faster each day/year. I started the year with a messy feeling due to * then i end with yet another crap. However, i dont regret any of this cause i believe every encounter whether is it in relationship/schooling/friendship/cca they all happen for a good reason (even if it hurts me). To sum up the most important thing to me, this year was a really lovely year and i am pround to say that my new year resolution i made on last day of 2007 came true, which is friendship <3 2007 lots of drama on friendship, i was lost and really breakdown, i actually lost hope in people. Came 2008, strangers become friends, goodfriends and even bestfriend(madeline), and of course all my already very very close/bestfriends, the relationship have grown even stronger. Of course 2008 didnt go smoothly everyday but i am a really lucky girl cause i know when my life turns upside down, there're alway people cheering on for me. ThankYou for being my friend (to all) 

As for my 2009 new year resolution, i want to maintain my smooth sailing ride for friendship and i hope to have a closer/better relationship with my family. Of course, i really want to have good self-discipline cause its going to be my turn to take OLEVEL! Whatever the case is, i still strongly believe that hard work will surely pay off (: 

Well i guess mine is kinda short, i do have other wishes in mind too but i guess its just the same as many others. 
LOVE TO ALL &
                            ****              HAPPY NEW YEAR      ****             
GOODBYE 2008, WELCOME 2009