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shifted(!!)

2009-03-07T06:42:19Z

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unleashtales @ 2009-02-21T01:04:00

2009-02-20T17:22:50Z

Cant concentrate anymore ... i'm lossing focus on studies =x

unleashtales @ 2009-02-18T21:06:00

2009-02-18T13:11:04Z

There's nothing more to say.
Its not the end of world
happiness will still remain.
No more looking back, leaving everything behind, leaving everything out
I'll be happier (:

School = Homework + Test
Tomorrow = School = Homework + Test = Zzzz...
i miss you, what are you doing now, where are you?

a little update

2009-02-13T14:51:20Z

My sixteen was just a simple dinner with besties the huhhhhh were not free..... but its okay, its still great (: This year madeline and i suprised each other during our birthday, i am sure hers was more successful afterall i'm really blur :\ haha. Anyway thanks a lot to those who remember my birthday :}
So... valentine is tomorrow!! I wont be celebrating it as usual hahaha. I wish my sis and her bf last long long and eventually get marry!! and besties and her bf to be the sweetest couple ever! Btw its not only about relationship, i also want my friendship to last forever with you all. Thanks a lot for standing by me whenever i need. You all know who you are because we share the bond!

ITS HERE!!!

2009-02-11T16:07:56Z

it just freaks me out

2009-02-04T21:46:45Z

I woke up at 4plus, now its 5plus soon it will become 6-6plus then 7plus is time to go school. There's so much words which i want to vomit out but i dont know who to tell or how to express them out. Right now the only thing i'm alway repeating to myself is work hard and harder or else my dreams can only only be dreams.

marks the end but the start of a whole new adventure

2009-02-02T15:49:42Z

i dont see any chances, i dont like the way i feel whenever i see you with your phone. its enough, its time to go, really. this time is for real, is for sure, i'm not going to hold back again, seeing you shall no longer mean anything to me. too bad you didnt notice the great side of me or maybe it just wasnt good enough for you. dont matter, i am happy being single and i'd have a lot of "boy-friends" hahaha. (maybe you wont ever read this but well... i'm really speechless and hopeless on you)

CNY with Mr Lee and 4R1

2009-01-31T16:07:34Z

update another time, photo only for now

on the whole

2009-01-30T14:52:22Z

As i flip through the old photos i realised that happiness and innocence seem to be closely linked together. Remembering those time when i just do things for fun and laughter. I still do but its not the same. I think i have lost part of me as i grow, now i just want to take my time to grow and hopefully find the missing part back (:

Today was good as usual. I'm really extremely grateful to be in 4r1, it feels so good to be bounded. The girls are in a whole, the girls and guys are close.! Not forgetting, we finally have carpet for ngee ann wushu =) I think i'll miss wushu after graduating, my juniors are so cute but like to bully me... a few well... but like i alway say, i am graduating already, why cant we just put the past away and treasure the remaining time together since we never know when we'll meet again after parting. Going Mr Lee's house tomorrow with the class!!

And... i really really miss dewu so much =x I dreamt of some this morning. Well... i made the decision so i will have to stick with it. But... i still love, care and miss you. Especially minli, afterall i know her since pri6 in wuzhong and she's like my small little sister/ little coach. <3 MingXin smsed, she's having party on Sunday hopefully i can make it.

Schooling is sad sad sad... at least 2tests/week. Oh well... AFTER OLEVEL I AM SO GOING TO ENJOY MYSELF!!!

unleashtales @ 2009-01-29T19:21:00

2009-01-29T11:23:49Z

I fail amath by a freaking one mark and i lost one mark due to not putting a ="0". zero... I am starting to lose my voice, hate it hate it ...

high high high high up in the sky

2009-01-25T13:58:56Z

I AM HOT!! HAHAHAHAA likeS.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y HOT! hahaha i just had wine with my family so i'm kinda crazy wahahhahaha. I think i am more sick than yesterday which spells, s.u.c..k ... TakecarE and i should be getting headache sooon.... i am extremely red now (:

unleashtales @ 2009-01-24T21:08:00

2009-01-24T13:29:11Z

sore throat + flu = T_T
I'm pretty much flooded with hw and tests, S.I.A.N. I need to rest early and pray then i'll recover by monday.

unleashtales @ 2009-01-20T21:53:00

2009-01-20T13:51:48Z

i'm controlling controlling, not to let the feeling to come back. its so foolish, i hate to be one-sided but its just not going away.
minlin i think i need your listening ear about him again ):
side note: i know i am such a loser. i really hope to clear things, the separate is really killing and confusing but i know how much i shouldnt bring it up again. ok shut up! su hui is not going to emo, no way NO WAY.

unleashtales @ 2009-01-18T15:06:00

2009-01-18T07:28:21Z

Amath TEST tomorrow bummer }: I did those chapters that i am better in and ignore those that i takes forever to understand, very "clever" i know. Seriously no mood to study now, i shall slack slack slack slack slack ... and then freak out duing test tomorrow. Bad example, please dont learn!

the perfect layout

2009-01-16T02:55:10Z

No SCHOOL(!) nahh... i'm going pula ubin again to weed/plant today, yesterday was in the morning so today is afternoon. And my prediction is i will be a zombie when i'm back cause i've to go for tuition right after cip :\
Note: what am i doing now? seventeen magz + bread + greentea = happy me (:
takecare & 14jan was Madeline's aka bff birthday!

unleashtales @ 2009-01-06T21:46:00

2009-01-06T14:10:45Z

i miss dewu people a lot... esp... but no choice... heard that hj going to be enlist on the 8th, good luck (: and to kiwi and the rest who are going ns this year, best wishes?

for the last time

2009-01-06T09:35:02Z

for the last time,
do you know how it feels hoping to see someone so much but when you really see him you only want to hide away? that night when i called and ask if you really want to separate, you said yes. i pause for very long, in my mind i wanted to tell you i want to be selfish and hold on to you but in the end i agreed with the separate. at that moment, i believe that its better to let go and see you happy than to hold on and see you sad. i dont think i've ever told you this, you said something like its no point being together unhappily, maybe thats how you felt but just so you know, even though i dont talk much or laugh as much when with you, i'm really smiling inside my heart. i've no problem with hanging, laughing, joking with guys but whenever it comes to the one i have feeling for, i become a total loser, no matter how much i wish to talk, nothing much seems to come out when face to face. not because i dont enjoy being with you just, i dont know how to express it out. until today, you still comes to my mind randomly. do you know how much i wish to tell you how i feel through sms msn or face to face but trust me, i dont even have the 0.0001 courage to do it. i am not like some girls, i hated one-sided feeling, i am scared of rejection which is why i dont say a word about it to you. clarence ask me talk to you during training, i really dont dare to. i am rather sure i wont make the first step to rekindle the relationship with you even though i truly wish and want to. i dont understand why we just suddenly turned distanced then, when i though it was mend, the next thing i know was separate. its impossible to talk about friendship now cause i still have feelings for you and i rather runaway then to be one-sided love. i still hope you'd come back, well i guess thats just the foolish side of me. remember how i prayed for your eoy result last year, i prayed that you will promote even if that means we cant be together. this time i pray that you will study hard, do well and be happy everyday. i've no idea if you'd ever read this or maybe your friends will need to tell you about it instead, i didnt do this to bring stress or beg or let you to be tease by your friends. i intend to send it as an email but obvious i find doing this here easier cause i dont have to face with the reply which will hurt me. i'm no longer going to rely on you so no worries. i hate this part so so much but i dont have a choice i must go through it. i hate to feel so desperate/ throwing myself to you but right now i still want you. not sure if anyone can understand the feeling of wanting someone so much but dare not have the feeling. i'll be fine and well eventually, now even though i dont want to but i only know how to dao/ ignore you. this is me, i hope this can mend myself, can let you understand. dont be back just to pity me if you have no feelings. as for this friendship, well i am sure we'll have it back one fine day. take care and this will be the last time i let myself to say i miss you, i love you.

unleashtales @ 2009-01-02T17:55:00

2009-01-02T10:09:06Z

i'm laughing, smiling, joking but truthfully i'm more afraid of everything than how anyone would have expect me to be.

unleashtales @ 2009-01-01T15:42:00

2009-01-01T07:57:46Z

dresscode for tmr: school uniform

The LAST day of 2008

2008-12-31T03:26:35Z

I just find that i must have this post cause today's 311208!!
~~if we didn't separate then it would have been the 4th month~~

2008 is going to end in hours time and i am going to countdown with kevin wendy and jerven and crystalla this year (:
I think as you grow older, you will automatically find that time is passing by faster and faster each day/year. I started the year with a messy feeling due to * then i end with yet another crap. However, i dont regret any of this cause i believe every encounter whether is it in relationship/schooling/friendship/cca they all happen for a good reason (even if it hurts me). To sum up the most important thing to me, this year was a really lovely year and i am pround to say that my new year resolution i made on last day of 2007 came true, which is friendship <3 2007 lots of drama on friendship, i was lost and really breakdown, i actually lost hope in people. Came 2008, strangers become friends, goodfriends and even bestfriend(madeline), and of course all my already very very close/bestfriends, the relationship have grown even stronger. Of course 2008 didnt go smoothly everyday but i am a really lucky girl cause i know when my life turns upside down, there're alway people cheering on for me. ThankYou for being my friend (to all)

As for my 2009 new year resolution, i want to maintain my smooth sailing ride for friendship and i hope to have a closer/better relationship with my family. Of course, i really want to have good self-discipline cause its going to be my turn to take OLEVEL! Whatever the case is, i still strongly believe that hard work will surely pay off (:

Well i guess mine is kinda short, i do have other wishes in mind too but i guess its just the same as many others.
LOVE TO ALL &
**** HAPPY NEW YEAR ****
GOODBYE 2008, WELCOME 2009

we know we have each other

2008-12-23T15:29:56Z

Just came home from clifford's house with a really red face and neck :} I'm not drunk, i can walk straight so no worries. Us, wendy jingyu crystalla jerven kevin gary me and some of clifford's classmates had a bbq session at clifford's condo today. Pretty good and like what his mum say, we should have more gathering together! Oh ya Mrs Pong joined us too! We went into the function room have wine and chocolate so that explains my reddish-ness haha. Sis's still in malaysia ): but she promise that she will be home in the afternoon tmr, so yes my present!! hahaa. Life is good and i shouldnt ask for more but just be grateful that i have my friends, goodfriends, bestfriends,teammates and family with me (: I love them and i know they truly love me too. I can't wait for the next outing with them and ALISON YOU PAISEH US!! HAHA I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS, MISS ME IN EROUPE!!! HAHAHAHA LOVE YOU A MILLONS TIMES AND I KNOW YOU KNOW IT TOO.!! TAKE CARE AND PROMISE WE WILL AND MUST MUST MEET UP!!!!! <33

ps: took quite a few photos will upload them when kevin send me (:

unleashtales @ 2008-12-22T18:46:00

2008-12-22T12:05:39Z

it just come back so suddenly
i keep my eyes off you
i keep my mind off you
but just why, why
can i know just what am i to you...
310808 i thought we will make it through
i am so sorry, it just, i dont know why, just. nevermind. goodbye

have you seen a panda living in your house

2008-12-19T01:50:19Z

I think i am cool and random so i always edit my post (:
Anyway yes man rocks my socks away, like seriously!! I actually clap during the scene where others were clapping, it was my first time doing that, dont laugh please... The whole movie is a joke but a very nice one too, you really should go and catch it if you haven't. Bought my sis's christmas present but i think i will add on something, maybe. Oh ya my swollen face is recovering!!! *jump around* Bus home with madeline as usual and we actually have somewhat the same plan for next year?

Basically, we are going to throw guys aside, make library our 2nd/3rd home, concentrate on studies, more studying session together ( yes/no mad?) and work hard together. She's so going to be my boyfriend for next year. HAHA but but i'm going to two time ~ well, i've started jioing study as my bf and he agrees to stead on 020109, what he doesnt know is i am so going to dump him on the last day of Os. Its going to be a secret between us ( me and those reading). And this relationship with him really must work out and he better not dump me or give up on me half way cause i really really desperatly need him with me next year. HAHAHA okay, i know i am dam lame but you get what i mean, no(?) Btw i think mad and i have more things in common than what i thought i'd know cause we even have the same skipping scenes habit.

And and, if you know me since pri right, do you think i've change a lot in terms of look?? I really dont understand why my consider close pri schoolmates/classmates can just walk pass me and see me face to face but nono they just dont recongise me!! I'm just a random stranger -.- ... haha but actually it doesnt really matter, i should learn to be more daring and say hi first? Alright this post is getting rather long, take care people =] Stay happy always!!

My random list

2008-12-17T01:50:21Z

1) i am desprate to have my face back to its normal shape
2) i really feel like getting one more pirecing so it will be 3 on the right :}
3) i miss my friends, i need to meet them again soon
4) i am totally in love with twlight <33 i want to buy the rest of the storybook so i can know the ending
5) i think i want to rebond my hair as one of my christmas present(?) thats if mum stop bugging me that i cant do anything till olvl is over next year T_T
6) i am in no mood for homework anymore, wanna just give it a miss
7) 23dec will be great but i dont know how am i going to enjoy with my teeth now
8) i havent get sis her christmas present!! and for my parents too... :\
9) i think the feeling is coming again, i am starting to miss my all over again.
10) that feeling needs to be fix, soon and fast
11) i need to do emath with wugui!!
12) mum and dad are desprate about signing up tuition for me
13) shuhui's birthday is appoaching like tmrs' tmr and i am not updated with the surprise yet
14) i am starting to like long sleeves shirt, i dont know why
15) i need to try my best to finish the chinese storybook asps coz i cant stand reading it!
16) i can already picture myself dying for school reopens test
17) and it isnt a good thing to start 2009 with bad results since i ended 2008 with bad ones already
18) i started 2008 with a broken heart, i ~~end 2008 with yet another broken heart~~ NOT! i need to stop thinking about 310808
19) i need a new crush HAHA (:
20) take care people!! you must have feel very stupid to actually read this
love sh :]

we share the same smile

2008-12-13T06:01:53Z

Yesterday was great, went sentosa with the huhhhhh <3 The only sad thing is, we probably wont meet up anymore till end of year of next year ): But, maybe, maybe we will meet up to study next year? Thats only after we dont have cca anymore cause our timing clash. I dont feel very good now, i am scared that i will fall sick. I cannot and must not fall sick before next tue. My teeth hurts like akljsdklghdksj now, i cant believe i am saying this, but i cant wait for the operation to get rid of the wisdom teeth. Take care and i'll miss the huhhhhh <3